Friday, October 5, 2012
Sleepin In Fridays
Write me a melody and I'll sing you the moon.
For we both know too well, it all fades too soon.
It all fades too soon.
So, today I am feeling inadequate. I know you aren't usually suposed to say that if you feel like that, but I think everyone is allowed to have those moments. And right now, I feel inadequate because I'm realizing that I don't have something I'm very good at. And all around, with everything, I feel inadequate. Friendships, Sports, Looks, Talents. I don't have much in those areas. I feel like a failure in some areas. I usually try to be optimistic, I know I should be, but today the problems are piling. And I feel defeated and frustrated with myself. But when you are on your knees, the only place to look is up.
"When I don't measure up in this life, I'm a treasure in the arms of Christ."
I'm trying to keep this in mind.
I know it's just one of those days.
So I know I'll be okay.
But I had to write it.
It was sitting on my chest and mocking me.
I had to set free the negativity.
Okay, I'm going to post pictures to make me feel better.
I'm already feeling slightly better now.
I just need to give it to God.
Let His Words and Promise comfort me again.
And I think I'll make some oatmeal.
And I will hug my dog.
And I'm photographing people today legitly so that's exciting.
And there's some pointless but funny tv shows to be watched.
And nails to be painted.
And life to be loved.
And myself to accept.
I'm sorry self.
You deserve more love than that.
I feel lighter.
Nothing about my circumstances has changed, but my perspective has.
And don't you know?
Perspective is a lovely hand to hold.
Who's hand are you holding?