Friday, November 29, 2013


Just popped in to say I hope you all had a wonderful Thanksgiving and are as excited as I am for the Christmas season.


Friday, November 15, 2013

Is this Goodbye?

Dear Blogging World,

Is this Goodbye?
I don't know.
 I wanted to say I'm sorry though for not posting for so long and without an explanation.
I definitely have not been feeling motivated to blog anymore as of now.
Blogging can be enjoyable but it's also stressful.
You feel like you need to keep up with it constantly, to check out everybody else's blogs, and sometimes it even feels like a competition.
I mean people can get competitive over blogs and want theirs to be better than yours.
And then sometimes you lose the point of your blog; which is to inspire, and instead you just want or are waiting for comments and new followers so you can be proud of your blog.
And if you don't get comments or followers, you think no one is reading your blog.
Which then turns stressful again because you think; What's the point of my blog then?

Well, here's what I have to say. Blogging seems to go in and out with people. Sometimes, they are consistent, sometimes they are inspired, and sometimes they have free time. They'll post when they can, and read when they can. That's how it should be with you too. You shouldn't take it so personally in the blogging world or worry if your post gets a lot of views or not. Just post it and see what happens. If nothing happens, nothing happens. It's not a competition and you don't have to get a bunch of comments on every post.

This is what I think I've learned from my break. I've slightly missed blogging because I miss documenting my adventures or thoughts. But at the same time, it's immensely freeing to not have to worry about it. I'm afraid that if I start back up, I'll get sucked up again and lose sight of the fun in it.

SO, I don't think I'm ready to come back yet. Maybe over the Christmas holidays, or after the Christmas holidays, I'll have a few posts up my sleeve. But, I'm not 100% positive yet. We'll see.

Until then, I hope you are all doing well. I am doing well. November has been treating me well. I promise. The colder weather, the Starbucks holiday cups, the premiere of Thor 2, the fairgrounds, and the promise of an upcoming Thanksgiving break and Christmas season has kept me happy and content. How's your November? Go ahead and describe it to me in the comments, I promise I'll read them all when I get back on here next.

I will be back... this is only goodbye for now.


Tuesday, October 29, 2013

I don't understand why the sea is so salty.
I don't understand why when I look into the ocean, I see a fragment of who I used to be and the tears I used to cry.
I don't understand how the waves just carry on endlessly and never tire.
I don't understand why we can't be like waves, carrying on endlessly without tiring.
Why the seagulls cries sounds like the voice in my head mocking me for dreaming.
Why I could never just enjoy the ride and be normal instead of creating metaphors and calling back memories and holding on and letting go and analyzing and remembering.

I do understand boats.
I understand how they are strong and dependent (usually).
How they carry you away from wherever you are, happy to take you to new sights and to see new things.
I understand how they can just float a long, happy to be their self.
I don't understand why the sea is unsettling but boats are calming.

One and One does not always make two.
Rhymes don't always equal me and you.

October, I understand we must say goodbye to you.

Thursday, October 24, 2013

Sweater Weather

I'm just briefly going to comment on this weather.... it's beautiful, wonderful, fabulous and amazing.
I had two cups of coffee day, my sweater is hugging me, the smell of amber is in the air, and I'm feeling quite adventurous and happy.
Go have adventures, go outdoors, go be happy.

Wednesday, October 23, 2013

October, October

I'm sorry October hasn't brought you many posts.
Octobers are busy.
But beautiful.

I tell you what. Our dance studio is doing a zombie/dance version of Thriller at a Fall festival coming up soon, so we've been working and having fun with that. I'm really psyched. I'm being a princess zombie. :)

Also, our studio has been having rehearsals for our HUGE Christmas performance at Botanical Gardens in December. So, I've been busy but having fun with that as well. Christmas is my favorite. <3

As well as this, I've been having school projects and papers to do. I guess we're half way through the semester so things are starting to heat up.

This weekend, we got to go up to Sweetfields Farm; a cute little Farm where we saw pig racing, an adorable huge cow, got to experience our first corn maze, taste fresh homemade apple cider, and look around at their pumpkin patch and activities and etc. It was fun, quaint, and perfect to do with my family. After that we met up with our church for a cookout and some volleyball playing. That all took place Saturday. Then Sunday, I had to go to a school play which wasn't all that fun and I taught Sunday School which was fun/stressful and in the evening we all watched Toy Story of Terror together and then I watched Once Upon a Time. Toy Story of Terror is really cute if you haven't seen it. <3 It's an ABC short Halloween special. And then that episode of Once Upon a Time was pretty darn amazing too. So, the weekend was great.

The only downside to it all, is that I got sick and still am kind of sick. And now it's Wednesday, which means more business and school.

But October has been beautiful all around.
Really, beautiful.
How has yours been?
(I'm really sorry for not being on here a lot... life is hard to catch up on sometimes.)

Thursday, October 10, 2013

The Other Night Vs. Tonight

The other night, the moon looked like a smile and so I smiled back.
The air was cool and the streets were nice to walk upon.
The coffee worked it's way through my bloodstream and ignited my bones with life.

Tonight, Glee wrecked me.
I don't know if anyone saw the Cory Monteith tribute episode, but it's heart wrenching.
Now, I'm sad.

It's a passing notion, I know it will be. But heartbreak... it's so hard to watch.
And it just reminds you of how real it is, and how fragile life is, and to love and treasure and cherish every moment of it.

So, tomorrow I'll probably remember to love and cherish and maybe I won't be sad then. But right now, I see their faces in my mind, and the tears and the quotes... and I feel sad because death and sadness is real. It's not acting.

Glee is not my favorite show.
Sometimes it has good messages, but sometimes I really don't agree with their messages AT ALL.

Tonight, though. Tonight's episode made good points, and it was beautiful and it was sad.

"If I start crying, I'm afraid I will never stop."

Wednesday, October 9, 2013

There's a Great Big Beautiful Tomorrow...

You know something? I don't have a lot to say today except that; I am extremely awkward.

Sometimes I don't even know why I'm so awkward. There are some people that I am completely comfortable around and can say whatever I want to say and not feel self conscious or even just not say anything because I feel totally comfortable not having to say anything and having it not be awkward. But then, there's some people that I just like freeze up with. I way over think what I'm going to say or try to be too careful with my words that I end up mixing them up or getting the words wrong anyways or phrasing them weirdly. It's annoying feeling nervous talking to people. Like, why does that happen? I don't even know. I wish I could control it and just not think or care and be my complete self with everyone, but I really am not sure I'm able. I don't know. Blarghahaha.

I guess though, in a way, this is how we find out who good friends are. Good friends will stick by me and my awkwardness and want to hang out still and eventually we'll get past my awkwardness and I'll be completely comfortable being me. 
So, I look forward to that day where I find a guy who revels in my awkwardness and sticks around to see my awkwardness slowly start to fade away before his eyes and for us just to be really really good friends and then best friends and then more than friends. I want us to do normal things in extraordinary ways and love in an unbroken way and to be so closely knit together in a way that can only be managed because our hearts are so deeply rooted in God. And it'll happen.
If I ever find a guy to marry, it'll be that guy.
So, my awkward self, chin up and keep loving and being you regardless.
There's a Great Big Beautiful Tomorrow.


Monday, October 7, 2013

Autumn Leaves

Hello my First October Weekend.

You have been;

- Nightmare Before Christmas
- Pumpkin Spice Lattes with Nora
- Getting lost/ going on an "adventure" with Nora
- Pumpkin Hunting as a Family
- Pizza
- Puppies!
- Shopping
- It's the Great Pumpkin Charlie Brown
- Dunkin Donuts
- Games
- Pumpkin Carving
- Bike Rides
- Breezes
- Once Upon a Time in Neverland
- Light Feelings
- Happiness

Basically, I love moments and days like these. It's tradition to make memories at Pumpkin Patches as a family, and I love it. I loved my weekend dearly. I love Octobers dearly. I loved going on unexpected adventures, and singing random things, and just being totally in love with life. I hope you had a splendid Fall weekend too.

Last Years Pumpkin Patch Photos and Fall Photos:

This Years Pumpkin Patch Photos:


Fall la la la la, la la la la.
See what I did there?
Anyways, I love Fall.

So, forget your worries today( forget about your worries and your pride. yeah man ) ,
and rejoice!
It's October!

Thursday, October 3, 2013

Today is the Color

Today is the color of the coffee that you spilled on your shirt.
Today is the color of the breezes that accentuated the sunshine spraying rays on your skin.
Today is the color of the promise of Fall leaves to be found like secret notes upon your car window shield.
Today is the color of your eyes when you got lost in a day dream about stars and adventures.
Today is the color of the fingertips that paint words like poetry engraved in the rose petals tucked away in your pockets.
Today is the color of dreams and reality and possibility and chances.
October is here.

Wednesday, October 2, 2013

Dear October,

Welcome to the World once again.
October leads to November which leads to December.
They all start to melt into one huge mega month of festivities and cheerfulness.
We go from cool to cooler to cold.
Or if you're a Floridian like me, we go from hot to hot to still hot. (Haha kidding. Kind of.)
Anyways, I love Octobers. I love Novembers. I love Decembers.

So, I'm ready.
Bring what you got October.

Oh good ole moccasins of mine.

This is last years pumpkin. :) This weekend, our family will be having our annual pumpkin patch hunt and there shall be pictures then too.

Alright, so I posted Autumn and Winter photos because it's Autumn and Winter follows Autumn and because I love them both... but why did I post Eiffel Tower pictures? Just because I'm really intrigued by Paris and London and I really want to go so I decided to post pictures of Paris. Also, last year, I died a bit of my hair blue. This year, I got it cut short. So, alas, I thought I'd post a picture of it.
I'm excited.
This weekend I'm watching the Nightmare Before Christmas for my first time when my best friend spends the night.
It's gonna be epic.
Then, I'm going to this reallllly good pizza place and pumpkin hunting with mi familia where we then watch It's the Great Pumpkin Charlie Brown.
So, it's gonna be good.
Then Sunday, Once Upon a Time.
So, yeah. I love the weeks, but I really really love the weekends.
Until then, I'll  spend my week days sipping my pumpkin spice coffees, working on papers, studying for tests, admiring the Fall breezes, listening to Disney music and listening to Fall Leaves by Ed Sheeran.
Hope you all are doing Marvel-ous.

Hahaha, get it? I'm so funny.
Peace Out Girl Scouts.

Monday, September 30, 2013

Excited About Life

Have you ever been so excited about life that you just wanted to share it?

Like, I don't know. I really would love to get a gift and wrap it up and give it to a random stranger someday. Maybe on Christmas, maybe just for the heck of it. I would just love to help someone else get really excited about life. Cause life is exciting. I would want to believe that something totally unordinary could happen out of the blue to me, and so I would love to do something that is out of the ordinary for a person to experience. I want to go hug a stranger and tell them that they are beautiful and life holds a lot for them. I want to bring a puppy to a little kid's house. I want to throw confetti or glitter in the air and give out free balloons. These are all outrageous ideas that probably will never happen, but then again, who knows? Maybe it will someday, and maybe people will think it's completely ridiculous and weird but they will smile and be forever changed and their lives will be exciting.
Today I feel like I can do anything. I don't know why that is, and it is succumb to change. But I feel adventurous and light and happy and like my life is meant to be lived.
Which it is.
Maybe it's the short hair.
Maybe it's the steadily paid photoshoots I've been having.
Maybe it's the caffeine high from National Coffee Day.
Maybe it's getting to go to Neverland with Once Upon a Time's season premiere.
Maybe it's trying pumpkin bagels at Einstein Bros Bagels with my friend.
Maybe it's building a bear and watching the Sound of Music.
Although I highly doubt it, maybe it's the getting of flu shots.
Or perhaps, those are just merely life events that have come to pass this weekend.
Surely, I enjoyed them.
But I don't think that's whats making me joyful.
I think it all has to do with my Savior.

Have an adventurous week,
and be thankful for being basked in God's grace.

Thursday, September 26, 2013

Beauty and the Beast

Because I have an unhealthy obsession with Belle, I have decided on something. My future husband, will take me to the Be Our Guest restaurant, and he'll surprise me with a single rose. From that day on, every time he sends flowers, it will actually only be a flower and that flower will be a rose. He can still send me multiple chocolates though, that'd be okay. Every year for my birthday, he will buy me a teacup, and it'll be chipped and I will adore it. And then when we get married, we can play Tale as Old as Time at the reception and that will be our song, and it will go down with us as well as the story, and our story really will become A Tale as Old as Time. Our kids will have asked for us to re-tell it every night when they were growing up. It'll be beautiful and romantic.
Of course, this is all my imagination.
The probability of this happening is highly unlikely.
However, a girl can dream.

Tuesday, September 24, 2013

One day

Maybe one day you will wake up in the middle of living your life and suddenly everything will be okay and it'll all make sense and you'll be alright and you won't be tired and you'll be happy and it'll be okay. You won't know what happened or how it happened, but it happened. And you're okay.
I think it can happen, I've seen it happen to thousand of peoples.
So, for those of you who are tired and confused and grey and don't know what's going on or how to live life, I hope one day it hits you and you finally get it. And I hope you have the hope that I have if you haven't got it yet, and I hope you cling to His hope and promises and your life will radically change the closer you draw to Him.
Because my life has changed because of Him, and I am happy.
I want all of you to be too.

Monday, September 23, 2013

Happy Fall (Ya'All)

So, yesterday, was the first official day of Fall. So, huzzah! Fall, is here.

I am excited about Fall.
Are you ready for Fall?

Well, listen to "The Ballad of Love and Hate" by the Avett Brothers.
Firstly, it's a good song.
Secondly, they have a Fall sounding tone to their music. Trust me.

If you want, you can also listen to Autumn Leaves by Ed Sheeran. That's another good one.

Next, light some candles!!!
Candles are cheery and smell like Fall.
Wear some plaid.
Make pumpkin creations, and definitely go grab a Pumpkin Spice Latte from good ole Starbucks.

Then, make Fall plans.

For instance, my friend is sleeping over and we're going to watch The Nightmare Before Christmas and It's the Great Pumpkin Charlie Brown together sometime in October.

I'm also going to a football game with a friend in October.

And of course, I have my church's annual Fall festival with Tractor hayrides, bucket loads of candy, and usually a game of football or basketball to look forward to as well.

I love Fall.
October is coming.
I can smell it.

So, get excited.
Bring out those reds, browns, and oranges to wear.

 (Photocreds to me)
(Photocreds to me)
(Photocreds to me)

Things That Remind Me of Fall:

1. Taylor Swift. Yeah, she's changed a bit, but I still like her. Her cd's almost always came out around September/October. Last year's song; "All too Well" also had a Fall-like vibe to me and her mention of Maple Lattes. Before that, I remember her cd "Speak Now" coming out in October and we bought it and listened to it the first time on a car ride to our church's annual Canoe trip. It was freezing that day, and it was nice having a car ride up there listening to her songs and feeling alive and full of Fall. That cd was also my favorite one so, good memories. :) Also, in Thanksgiving they had her tv special shown then too and I remember watching it right after our guests had left. Perfect ending to a perfect day. So, Taylor will always hold fond memories for me.

2. Harry Potter. They always have a great Fall scene in all of the books and movies. And I love Hermione's sweaters and boots, and her overall personality and fashion sense. I love Emma Watson. But overall, Harry Potter reminds me of Fall and I watch the movies/re-read the books around this time.

3. Pumpkin Patches. For obvious reasons. haha. But last year, we had a really memorable time getting our Pumpkin. We went out to eat at this really good Pizzeria, in which they brought out Pizza on a platter and my Dad accidently knocked off the table and onto the floor. Which somehow ended up being hilarious. haha. Then, we walked to a Puppy Place where you can gawk over cute puppies and play with them. After that, we went and got pumpkins. One to carve, and one to use for a favorite pumpkin recipe. And it was just fun. Everyone was in good spirits, and it was lovely.

4. Candy. For the obvious reasons.

5. Cold Weather, for the obvious reasons.

6. Plaid, Moccasins, Jackets, Football Games, and all that Jazz.

I just love Fall.

So many memories to make and remember.

Friday, September 20, 2013

I Went Back in Time

Not, literally, obviously.
But today I went through my old last year September posts.
I'll admit two things;
1. They were a bit more melancholy than this year's September posts.
2. I mentioned Fall a lot more then.
Even though they were melancholy, that time grew me and I'm glad about that. Because I'm really and truly happy now. Also, I think I don't mention Fall as much now because it still feels like Summer this year. But once Fall actually feels like Fall, I'll probably post more about it and my undeniable love for it.
Isn't weird how when you look back at something you wrote a year ago, it seems so foreign and like another person wrote it? I guess in a way another person did write it. Because we change day by day. We are new people as we grow older and experience more life. But anyways, I thought I'd share some of the things I wrote from last September that I didn't remember writing or posting, but actually like. A long with a collection of last year's September post photos I loved.

"Cover your Flaws with Fall Leaves."


"You had vulnerability in your toes,
Innocence on your clothes.
The world was but a broken dream,
But still you danced a Dreamer's Dream."
"You have time to write a poem about noodles.

You have time to thank someone for existing.

You have time to sip your coffee in a mug after it cools enough so you can taste it.

You have time to think, to dream, to explore, to love.

You have time to waste and time to keep.

You have time to regret, but not regret too much.

You have time to move on.

You have time to live."
Long Live Inspiring Quotes, Bloggers, Tumblr people, Pinterest Fans, Twilight haters and Team Jacob lovers, Whiny Popstars, and killer acoustics, Fashion genuises and Band Tees, Crooked Teeth and Straight Teeth.

Long Live it All.

The Memories. The Good, the Bad. The Sad, the Happy. The Immature, the Mature. The Concretes, The In Betweens. The Constants, the Changes. The Laughter, the Tears. The Everything, the Nothing. The Anything. Be Anything.
As they say; the more you know about life, the more you know that you don't know very much about it.
Am I back?
Am I?
I don't know.
I said I'd write when I was inspired again,
And today I was inspired.
We'll see what the future holds...