Wednesday, November 14, 2012

I don't even know

Life is constant go go go right now.
And I don't even know anything anymore.
I feel like time is slipping through my fingers.
I have things I should be doing but I don't know when I'm going to get them done.
School keeps drowning me in piles of reports and exams.
I feel like I keep messing up, and up and up.
I'm just frustrated and stressed I suppose.
Things are going good but at the same time they aren't.
It's confusing.
And on top of that, I'm having medical issues.
I have to spend two days of my thanksgiving break hooked up to wires.
I'm not really looking forward to that.
But I know there is a light at the end of the tunnel, that it gets darkest just before the dawn, and to keep on smiling regardless. So I will.
There are good things, and I'm not sad.
I'm just frustrated a little bit and slightly sad that life is passing me by so quickly.
I always run out of hours in the day.
But I'm keeping my head high.
I'm recovering from my slight break down.
I'm taking breaths.
More than one and probably more than a hundred also.
I'm sort of sitting on the edge of in betweens.
And it's rocking me back and forth when I thought it was a regular, ordinary chair.
I'm in love with the sea but sometimes I get sea sick.

Why are some sad things beautiful?
Why can't the Moon and Sun be together?
Why don't the waves give up on trying to be with it's beloved sand?
Why is the world full of time measured in clocks and numbers?
Why is it always passing and never stopping?
It goes and goes and goes.
It never stops to say hi.
To see how you are doing.
Time is always passing.
I'm still trying to figure out how that works.
I'll never figure out how time works.


  1. keep that lovely head of yours up , girl. thinking of you during this stressful time... xo

  2. I know how you feel, all besides the medical issues. I'll be praying for you<3

  3. Oh, I'm sorry to hear that you are having medical problems, Soph. I'll be keeping you in my prayers. x

  4. Yes... keep your beautiful chin up! I am sorry you are having medical problems. That is frustrating. I too will say some prayers for you and hope things look up soon.

    We can go mad thinking about time. I would encourage you to find the beauty in your busyness and stay positive. Time is completely uncontrollable and doesn't exist... the only reality is in this moment when you are reading this.

    Be brave my friend! You have a good attitude :) <3's to you and I hope your day is a good one.

  5. I'll keep you in my prayers! I hope the medical issues you get all the answers you need and that you are ok! It's so easy to get overwhelmed and sometimes we just feel like we are drowning. Keep your head up it'll all be ok! <3

  6. I feel that way too sometimes :( Frustrated that what I want to do I'm not doing. But I love what you said about being in love with the sea but sometimes getting seasick. Brilliant :)


  7. YES. It seems like this school year is just so much busier than last year, and I can't really figure out why; life in general just goes by faster. And now the holidays are coming and it'll just get quicker!
    "Things are going good but at the same time they aren't.
    It's confusing." - Definitly!!
    Shucks, its no fun to spend part of your break like that...but, I bet you'll find a jewel in there when the dawn breaks, bet you'll find something worth while... =)