Thursday, February 21, 2013
Sometimes I would rather an empty calloused cavity than have a heart. Because I'd rather have that then to feel pain and sadness. But sometimes it's neccessary to have a heart and it's neccessary for it to bleed too. Just as long as you remember to let it heal as well. And you know where you can get unlimited healing and comfort from. I'm not super sad, but I'm kind of down right now. I'm thinking of the death of a my friend's girlfriend. She passed away almost a year ago now. She was in a coma for 7 days before she died. She's been on my mind this week, but I've been trying to mimic the empty cavity thing. Because it's easier to try to not think about it, not because I'm cold hearted or anything. I tried not to think of her and I tried to avoid things that reminded me of her. I tried not to think of the sad pain that fills the family's hearts as they miss her. But I guess I realized that sometimes it's necessary to acknowledge it and to feel. And to be sad. As long as you be okay again too. So, tonight. I'm sad. I'm sad the world lost Hannah. I'm sad for the family, and her boyfriend, and her bestfriends, and her friends and all the lives touched by her. But I'm also happy that she's in a place with no more pain, no more grief, no more tears. I'll touch more on her story in another post. But for right now, I think that's all I want to say about this.
Last night was Shamrock Shakes, Oreo Donuts, Swingsets, Obscure voices, Flying Off Tunnels, and Adventuring In the Dark. Unfortunately, today is Supination, Merkels and Meissner cells, Stratified Epithelium, Addison's Disease, Langerhaun cells, and all that good stuff. Yeah, we all have to go back to the real world. Such a shame though. However, on the brightside, I think I passed my Anatomy test. Or at least I should have since I studied my butt off.
I think that's all I got from me today. Sorry, cause I took a break from reading people's blogs yesterday. I just had a lot going on. I'll try to be catching up on them. I also tried to end this on a lighter note. Because I'm not really super sad, and I don't want you to be sad either. I've actually been doing remarkably awesome. A lot of things have been going swell for me. Just as I mentioned, sometimes you have to ackowledge things and not ignore them. Just as long as you remember to be okay afterwords.