2015/2016

The start of 2015 seemed really promising.

The first day of the New Year.

I think we all have high expectations or wishes.

But really, it started out nice.

School was going good,

but twenty-first birthday went well.

But then, 

two major changes happened.

Boom.

Out of the blue,

I was off guard.

Unprepared.

I didn't have my armor up.

I could not and did not see it coming.

Life-changing changes.

Four months of 2015 were really good,

But eight really weren't.

There were good moments.

I have a lot of good memories to keep.

And you know,

maybe I had even better lessons to learn.

I did a lot of growing and I know I needed it.

At this rate, I know I still have life growing events coming up.

So, what do I say to this New Year?

I can't say I am ready because I am positive I'm not ready.

But I also know it's coming whether I want it to or not.

Whether I'm ready or not.

So, even though I am not ready,

I want to rely on God's strength to get me through this new year just like He got me through 2015.

I want to put on the armor of God and be ready to face spiritual battles thrown my way.

I want to go into it in prayer and leave it in prayer.

I want to be ready for things I don't feel ready for.

I want to fight,

and I want to get through it,

and I want to grow,

but I also really would like a few less curve balls this year.

I would like gentler waves.

But you know what?

Sometimes in life, you just don't get that.

So, I would like that whatever God's will is, that it be done.

And I would like my heart to want that even though I know it might not be easy.

2016.

I am Lord willing graduating this Spring.

It will be my last college semester as far as I can tell.

And right now, I have no earthly idea of what I am doing after.

I know the unknown will be coming to greet me soon.

And it's scary and I wish I knew.

But I don't.

And maybe for good reason.

So, I want to trust in You Lord.

And I want to rely on.

And I pray for guidance so I may know how I can serve You and live out what You have in store for me after graduation.

Well, and throughout life.

But I'll take it one step at a time.

2016.

What a number.