Just thoughts

Sometimes life tastes like gum drops and other times it tastes like cough drops.

And More

Things I like:

-The ocean
-The woods
-The mountains
-coffee
-tea
-lights
-art
-poetry
-walks
-rain
-me time
-people time
-the smell of fire
-flowers
-vw vans
-teal, sunset orange, forest green, sky blue, lavender purple, salmon pink, mud brown
-disney
-quotes
-inspirational and based on a true story movies
-traveling
-the world
-british tv shows/movies
-polaroids
-photography in general
-train tracks
-brick and old buildings
-fall
-winter
-snow
-christmas
-thanksgiving
-soccer
-dance
-anything that expresses ones self
-music
-when you can see people's eyes light up when they talk about something they are passionate about
-smiles
-whispers
-the smell of coffee, amber, and cherry blossoms
-classic literature
-people who stand by their own opinions and aren't afraid to share them
-twenty-one pilots
-death cab for cutie
-surfing
-the warm feeling of the sun on your skin and the taste of salt water
-the feeling of freedom when you are on top of/a mountain
-exploring
-the feeling of determination
-brave people
-kindness
-old souls
-typewriters
-horses, dogs, tigers, otters, dolphins, lions, bobcats, panda bears, foxes, polar bears, and more
-company even if it's silent company
-hand holding
-sharing memories
-growing
-symbolism
-things with meaning
-being wrapped up in a blanket on a cold day
-loving and being loved
-little children who aren't too bratty
-johnny depp
-people are kind of crazy and insane but also brilliant and fascinating
-predictability sometimes and spontaneity other times
-breakfast and cute breakfast places
-more specifically: waffles
-pizza
-candles
-when people have odd things they do without noticing like biting their lips when thinking or tapping their feet to the music
-people who aren't afraid to be themselves
-people who stand up for what's right no matter what
-listeners
-people who view the world in different ways
-the dead poet's society
-pie
-classy people
-gentlemen
-feeling safe
-God moments
-when you finally pick up your bible and intently read and are refreshed because that's what your soul needed
-chicken noodle soup and movie/tv marathons when sick
-Jesus and when He reminds me of His greatness
-when I see God working in someone's life
-hymns
-organizes messes
-high-fives

I'm not a loner. I'm just alone .

Tonight coming back to my room and taking a long shower and singing at the top of my lungs as loud as I can and putting up kitchen supplies and putting up my Polaroids and making tea before finishing up some school work, might just have been the most relaxing thing I've done for a long time. I feel like an adult, a Senior, and free. I'm not a loner. But sometimes I like a few moments alone to belt out songs and take long showers and put up decorations and think.

If Only We Were Like Job

I'm currently reading through Job.
And honestly,
it just blows my mind when I read through it.
Job was tormented.
He lost so much.
His livestock, his children, his health.
He suffered.
We suffer.
Us humans.
We suffer.
But I don't think we usually suffer like that.
I know I haven't.
But Job never denied God or doubted for a second that God has a reason for what He was doing.
He knew he had not done anything wrong and he did not understand what God was doing,
and yes he got angry at this,
but he still didn't question God's might or reasons.
He wanted to know God's reasons, but he didn't doubt that God had reasons.

We suffer.
But usually we don't suffer like that.
And people often question and doubt.
When things don't go our way.
We lose a friend.
We suffer with our feelings.
We don't understand.
We question.

We need to be more like Job.
It's okay not to know.
It's okay to wonder.
It's okay to not understand.
But there is no reason to question.

We must trust our Savior, our deliverer.
He made us, created us, He is all knowing, and He holds the universe in His hands.
He knows what He is doing.
He has a plan for each and every one of us.
He can see all of our lives, all of our hearts.
He sees our pasts, presents, and futures.
He knows how everything will work out and how everything needs to be for it to work out.
We can't see what will happen to us in 5 minutes.
In a day.
In the next day.
We can't,
We don't see the bigger picture.
He does.
We shouldn't question.
We shouldn't get angry at what we do not know.
We must trust.

Can You save my heavydirtysoul?

A cup of tea, some William Faulkner, and The Hunchback of Notre Dame.

Alone time can be nice.

Oh, and the answer is yes.
God can save my heavydirtysoul.
And He does, every day.
He makes it light and He makes it white as snow.

Today (or i guess yesterday now) was a good day

Times like these I am reminded of what a beautiful gift friendship and laughter are.
I am blessed.
In troubling times,
friendship always trumps it.
I have been to three colleges now and every college has had it's struggles but every college I have made friends, and friends have always helped me through whatever the struggles were.
I have a feeling that's how life is.
I know after college life won't get any easier.
But I know I'll continue to make friends and that they will still help me and hopefully I can help them.
Friendship is such a sweet gift.

Why, Hello Moon

And today the moon smiled at me so I smiled back.

And the cold air gave me something to smile at.

And the bonfire kept me warm.

And so did the posters in my dorm.

No, today wasn't half bad.

So as the moon smiled,

I decided to smile back.