Goodbyes and Hellos and New Adventures and Mixed Emotions

This year has been a lot of playing catch up for me.
I've constantly felt like I have been catching up with what life has been giving to me.
From new friends, to new schools, from bad changes to good changes, to hardships, to laughter, to going out of the country on my first mission trip, to tears.
There's been so much.
So much heartache.
So much beauty.
So much.
I can't even process it.
I know it's not New Years yet so maybe I shouldn't be doing this.
But I can't help but think about this as the semester ends.
As my best friend that I only became best friends with this year, leaves to go back to MA.
As two friends I made this semester leave the new school I've been getting to know this semester.
Life has just been so crazy for me.
I don't even know what to do with this.
Except praise God.
Praise God through the good times.
And in the bad times, praise Him still.

Sometimes I feel really weighed down.
But I'm just thankful for God and the freedom He gives.
I just know I don't always take advantage of this freedom.
A lot of times I remain chained to these feelings and chained to the heartache.

But I don't have to be,
And I don't want to be.
I want to be free.
That's why I need to keep rooted in Him.

That's what I need to do with life.

Sophie is a free elf

Finalsssss areeeee doneeeeee!
I'm free.
And I'm coming home for a month.
Hullllllo Christmas break,
I love you dearly.

“I am [in your world].’ said Aslan. ‘But there I have another name. You must learn to know me by that name. This was the very reason why you were brought to Narnia, that by knowing me here for a little, you may know me better there.” 

― C.S. Lewis, The Chronicles of Narnia

Jesus, you're all that matters.

And street lights glisten

Peppermint Mocha Coffee, colder weather, christmas light looking and a beautiful walk, Austenland.

Today had good moments.

Also,

I want a Mr.Darcy.

Dot dot dot

I was hugged by a stranger today.
I've never been hugged by a stranger before.

Christmas, I love you

Today was full of Christmas spirit. From my ugly Rudolph sweater, to a
Christmas photo booth, to hot chocolate, cooler weather and a double Christmas movie watching feature. I love Christmas. Also, my last day of classes happened today. Now I just need to get through Finals week.

Invisible man

Invisible Man, 

on the road,

gone with the wind,

in search of lost time.

The stranger for whom the bell tolls the sun also rises.

As I lay dying, things fall apart.

The heart is a lonely hunter;

An american tragedy,

white noise.

The remains of the day under the volcano;

the unbearable lightness of being,

tender is the night.

Sophie's Choice; take it or leave it.

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I've had so many good memories these past two days.

Polaroids,
Christmas Parties,
Sparkling Cider,
Christmas Cookies,
Pizza
Laughter,
Joy,
Bonfires,
Worship,
New Friends,
Starbucks.

It's been good.
Real good.

The above poetry was inspired by an idea I saw from someone else.

It's all put together and made by book titles.
There's not a phrase there that wasn't taken from a book title.
I don't know if you caught on to that or not.
It was a lot of fun and you should try it sometime.

I don't know what to say guys.
December has started off well.