A Thankful Thought and a Prayer Request

Nov.18th

I am thankful for my family.

I'm thankful to be back with them for a week and a half.

I'm thankful for our differences and the good times and bad.

I am thankful for their love and unending support.

I am thankful for my sisters even if we have funny ways of showing it.

I am having a hard day.

A hard couple of days.

I'm just being straight up honest.

This weekend was so amazing but the start of this week, even though I really had high hopes for it, it has just attacked me.

I don't even know where it came from.

Well, but actually I do.

I was really joyful and I was seeking God and I felt a huge want to glorify Him when coming back to school this week.

I'm sure the Devil hated that.

I know he wants to kill that joy and want.

And I'm pretty sure that's part of why I feel the way I do.

He's used circumstances, past experiences, insecurities, arguments, and worries to just overload and overflow on my mind and heart right now.

And I've been struggling.

I feel really low.

And I know joy comes from the Lord and I need to rely and hope in Him.

He is where my hope comes from.

At His feet is where I need to lay my burdens down.

But it'd be a lie to say I'm not struggling.

I'm battling big time right now.

Please, just pray that my eyes be fixed upon Jesus and that this sadness will blow away like a leaf in the wind.

I didn't want to write tonight.

I didn't want to write anything down that I was thankful for.

Because I didn't feel very thankful.

And then I realized that's why I needed to write down what I was thankful for.

And that I really needed to be thankful for it.

I'm glad to be here with my family.

My crazy, weird, and awesome and loving family.

I wouldn't want any other family.

It's broken and bent, just like everybody else's, but I wouldn't have it any other way.

Our lives are strung together in one unit for a reason.

I am thankful.