I don't understand why the sea is so salty.
I don't understand why when I look into the ocean, I see a fragment of who I used to be and the tears I used to cry.
I don't understand how the waves just carry on endlessly and never tire.
I don't understand why we can't be like waves, carrying on endlessly without tiring.
Why the seagulls cries sounds like the voice in my head mocking me for dreaming.
Why I could never just enjoy the ride and be normal instead of creating metaphors and calling back memories and holding on and letting go and analyzing and remembering.

I do understand boats.
I understand how they are strong and dependent (usually).
How they carry you away from wherever you are, happy to take you to new sights and to see new things.
I understand how they can just float a long, happy to be their self.
I don't understand why the sea is unsettling but boats are calming.

One and One does not always make two.
Rhymes don't always equal me and you.








October, I understand we must say goodbye to you.

Sweater Weather

I'm just briefly going to comment on this weather.... it's beautiful, wonderful, fabulous and amazing.

I had two cups of coffee day, my sweater is hugging me, the smell of amber is in the air, and I'm feeling quite adventurous and happy.

 

Go have adventures, go outdoors, go be happy.

October, October

I'm sorry October hasn't brought you many posts.

Octobers are busy.

But beautiful.

I tell you what. Our dance studio is doing a zombie/dance version of Thriller at a Fall festival coming up soon, so we've been working and having fun with that. I'm really psyched. I'm being a princess zombie. :)

Also, our studio has been having rehearsals for our HUGE Christmas performance at Botanical Gardens in December. So, I've been busy but having fun with that as well. Christmas is my favorite. <3

As well as this, I've been having school projects and papers to do. I guess we're half way through the semester so things are starting to heat up.

This weekend, we got to go up to Sweetfields Farm; a cute little Farm where we saw pig racing, an adorable huge cow, got to experience our first corn maze, taste fresh homemade apple cider, and look around at their pumpkin patch and activities and etc. It was fun, quaint, and perfect to do with my family. After that we met up with our church for a cookout and some volleyball playing. That all took place Saturday. Then Sunday, I had to go to a school play which wasn't all that fun and I taught Sunday School which was fun/stressful and in the evening we all watched Toy Story of Terror together and then I watched Once Upon a Time. Toy Story of Terror is really cute if you haven't seen it. <3 It's an ABC short Halloween special. And then that episode of Once Upon a Time was pretty darn amazing too. So, the weekend was great.

The only downside to it all, is that I got sick and still am kind of sick. And now it's Wednesday, which means more business and school.

But October has been beautiful all around.

Really, beautiful.

How has yours been?

 

 

(I'm really sorry for not being on here a lot... life is hard to catch up on sometimes.)

The Other Night Vs. Tonight

The other night, the moon looked like a smile and so I smiled back.
The air was cool and the streets were nice to walk upon.
The coffee worked it's way through my bloodstream and ignited my bones with life.

Tonight, Glee wrecked me.
I don't know if anyone saw the Cory Monteith tribute episode, but it's heart wrenching.
Now, I'm sad.

It's a passing notion, I know it will be. But heartbreak... it's so hard to watch.
And it just reminds you of how real it is, and how fragile life is, and to love and treasure and cherish every moment of it.

So, tomorrow I'll probably remember to love and cherish and maybe I won't be sad then. But right now, I see their faces in my mind, and the tears and the quotes... and I feel sad because death and sadness is real. It's not acting.

Glee is not my favorite show.
Sometimes it has good messages, but sometimes I really don't agree with their messages AT ALL.

Tonight, though. Tonight's episode made good points, and it was beautiful and it was sad.

 

 

"If I start crying, I'm afraid I will never stop."

There's a Great Big Beautiful Tomorrow...

You know something? I don't have a lot to say today except that; I am extremely awkward.

Sometimes I don't even know why I'm so awkward. There are some people that I am completely comfortable around and can say whatever I want to say and not feel self conscious or even just not say anything because I feel totally comfortable not having to say anything and having it not be awkward. But then, there's some people that I just like freeze up with. I way over think what I'm going to say or try to be too careful with my words that I end up mixing them up or getting the words wrong anyways or phrasing them weirdly. It's annoying feeling nervous talking to people. Like, why does that happen? I don't even know. I wish I could control it and just not think or care and be my complete self with everyone, but I really am not sure I'm able. I don't know. Blarghahaha.

I guess though, in a way, this is how we find out who good friends are. Good friends will stick by me and my awkwardness and want to hang out still and eventually we'll get past my awkwardness and I'll be completely comfortable being me. 

 

So, I look forward to that day where I find a guy who revels in my awkwardness and sticks around to see my awkwardness slowly start to fade away before his eyes and for us just to be really really good friends and then best friends and then more than friends. I want us to do normal things in extraordinary ways and love in an unbroken way and to be so closely knit together in a way that can only be managed because our hearts are so deeply rooted in God. And it'll happen.

 

If I ever find a guy to marry, it'll be that guy.

 

So, my awkward self, chin up and keep loving and being you regardless.

There's a Great Big Beautiful Tomorrow.

 

Autumn Leaves

Hello my First October Weekend.

You have been;

- Nightmare Before Christmas
- Pumpkin Spice Lattes with Nora
- Getting lost/ going on an "adventure" with Nora
- Pumpkin Hunting as a Family
- Pizza
- Puppies!
- Shopping
- It's the Great Pumpkin Charlie Brown
- Dunkin Donuts
- Games
- Pumpkin Carving
- Bike Rides
- Breezes
- Once Upon a Time in Neverland
- Light Feelings
- Happiness

Basically, I love moments and days like these. It's tradition to make memories at Pumpkin Patches as a family, and I love it. I loved my weekend dearly. I love Octobers dearly. I loved going on unexpected adventures, and singing random things, and just being totally in love with life. I hope you had a splendid Fall weekend too.

Last Years Pumpkin Patch Photos and Fall Photos:

 

This Years Pumpkin Patch Photos:

 

 

 

 

Fall la la la la, la la la la.

 

See what I did there?

Anyways, I love Fall.

So, forget your worries today( forget about your worries and your pride. yeah man ) ,
and rejoice!
It's October!
 

Today is the Color

Today is the color of the coffee that you spilled on your shirt.

Today is the color of the breezes that accentuated the sunshine spraying rays on your skin.

Today is the color of the promise of Fall leaves to be found like secret notes upon your car window shield.

Today is the color of your eyes when you got lost in a day dream about stars and adventures.

Today is the color of the fingertips that paint words like poetry engraved in the rose petals tucked away in your pockets.

Today is the color of dreams and reality and possibility and chances.

 

October is here.

 

 

 

Dear October,

Welcome to the World once again.

 

October leads to November which leads to December.

 

They all start to melt into one huge mega month of festivities and cheerfulness.

 

We go from cool to cooler to cold.

 

Or if you're a Floridian like me, we go from hot to hot to still hot. (Haha kidding. Kind of.)

 

Anyways, I love Octobers. I love Novembers. I love Decembers.

So, I'm ready.

Bring what you got October.

 

Oh good ole moccasins of mine.

This is last years pumpkin. :) This weekend, our family will be having our annual pumpkin patch hunt and there shall be pictures then too.

Alright, so I posted Autumn and Winter photos because it's Autumn and Winter follows Autumn and because I love them both... but why did I post Eiffel Tower pictures? Just because I'm really intrigued by Paris and London and I really want to go so I decided to post pictures of Paris. Also, last year, I died a bit of my hair blue. This year, I got it cut short. So, alas, I thought I'd post a picture of it.

 

I'm excited.

This weekend I'm watching the Nightmare Before Christmas for my first time when my best friend spends the night.

It's gonna be epic.

Then, I'm going to this reallllly good pizza place and pumpkin hunting with mi familia where we then watch It's the Great Pumpkin Charlie Brown.

So, it's gonna be good.

Then Sunday, Once Upon a Time.

So, yeah. I love the weeks, but I really really love the weekends.

 

Until then, I'll  spend my week days sipping my pumpkin spice coffees, working on papers, studying for tests, admiring the Fall breezes, listening to Disney music and listening to Fall Leaves by Ed Sheeran.

 

Hope you all are doing Marvel-ous.

 

Hahaha, get it? I'm so funny.

Peace Out Girl Scouts.