Tuesday, July 31, 2012

Use Me

Sometimes I feel like I don't add up or measure up in life. I feel like I can always do more, or be more. I feel like I'm an average girl with not much to my name sometimes. I look around and see extraordinary people and I want others to see me as that. I want my words to matter and impact people. But something i realized is that I wont always add up or measure up in life. Because life's expectations are crazy and impossible to meet. I just need to meet God's standards. And all He asks for us is to trust and believe in Him. We are already beautiful, because He made us. And His handiwork is nothing less than beautiful. We are something extraordinary if we are His follower. We are of worth and our words can impact. But they won't if we keep silent. Sometimes I think I am boring. And i think people get tired of me. But then I realize that sometimes its not about having the right words or most funniest words or even having to speak the most words. As long as you are kind, gentle, humble, and a good listener, it's not always about being the most extraordinary or loud or bold person. You don't have to say a lot. You don't have to be outgoing. And if people don't like you or think you to be boring, it doesn't matter what they think. It matters what God thinks. And my personality doesn't have to be eccentric. As long as I am aiming for attributes and qualities that are God-like, that is all that matters. And I don't need to measure up in the world. I don't need to be the most pretty or the most popular. I don't need fans or followers to make me feel okay. I just need to be who God wants me to be and do what He wants me to do, and I will be beautiful if I do that no matter what people say or think. So, Lord, Use Me. I am your clay. Mold me. Form me. Make me into something beautiful. And remember that... all you who struggle with insecurities and doubts and harsh words and thoughts. You're beautiful and you matter. Don't focus on people, focus on God.

Such is life

So, I really felt the need to write about a few things that bother me regarding guys. I will tell you my pet peeves about guys in cases that have happened to me in the past.

1. I hate it when a guy goes after a girl based on their looks only. It may be flattering to know they think you're pretty, but really, it's personality that matters most. And you can't have a relationship based on looks, it just doesn't work out and it makes you shallow. I hate finding out people just liked me because they liked the way I look. Then when someone prettier comes along, they move to her instead and you feel like a disposable object. Girls are NOT objects.

2. I hate it when a guy goes after a girl because they are lonely. And they will take any girl that is interested in them. Or they think they may have a chance with. That will not work out either, guys, because it's not in Your timing, it's in God's timing. And again, taking whatever you can get derails the girl's importance and makes her feel like she isn't something special.

3. I hate it when a guy becomes your friend and then develops feelings for you and if you don't have quite the same feelings or are not ready for a relationship, then they move on to someone else and quit being your friend. That bugs me the most. Because its low. Real low. To stop being a person's friend because they don't like you back. Friendship is important to me and i don't discard it easily like other people might.

4. I hate it when you are best friends with someone and then you both develop feelings for each other but when it ends or doesn't work out, the person quits being your best friend and denies ever being your friend even when that person had promised to remain your best friend no matter what happens because that was the most important thing. Thats a blow.

These all are my pet peeves. They hurt. So, guys, I'm not hating. I know girls have their problems too. And i know this doesn't apply to all guys. However, these cases have occured to me from several different people and I just wanted to let you all know that it is hurtful. And you shouldn't do this.

On the positive side, there is always comfort from God when this happens or occurs knowing that these are just small bumps along the way until I find the right man that He has already picked out for me. And maybe dealing with these cases will make me appreciate my future husband all the more. I just can't wait for him. And a tip for girls, don't settle with those types of guys who make you feel belittled or like an object or not like you are worth the world. Because a guy should make you feel like that. The only thing that may be hard is not knowing these things until after happens. And that's what i don't like. Sometimes guys appear to be people they aren't and you don't see the real them until they have defriended you, left you or treated you badly. However, remember to keep your head high because there IS someone out there. You will find him one day. And it'll be so worth it. And he will treat you like the gem you are. You just have to keep pulling the weeds out before you come across him. Protect your hearts, and never think yourself as less because of some guy. You are better than that.

While you are waiting, also, don't forget the one who loves you the most. The one who thinks you are worth dying for. And did die for you. Not only this, but remember that anyone who does not love the one who died for you, isn't worth being with or loving. He is not capable of loving truely if he does not love the one who IS love.

                                                     Keep holding On,

Monday, July 30, 2012


Sometimes you have weeds in your life that you may not always realize you have. But once you realize it and pull it out of your life, you will feel a big difference. A huge relief. A breath of fresh air. And you'll have more room for beautiful things to grow.

I got a rid of a weed in my life last night and I think that's sort of ironic that I just figured that out when last week on the Missions Trip, we basically pulled a whole lot of weeds. And you learn to appreciate the beauty and the difference of a weeded out garden compared to a garden filled with weeds that hinder and destroy. And once you do that in your own life, you can see the beauty and difference too. God is so good. Let Him use you to make beauty in your life and the lives of others.

The Future has always been kind of scary to me. But for the first time in a loooong long time, I am so excited for it. I am so excited to see how God will use me. I am excited to see the places I'll go and the things I'll do. I am so excited to impact lives. I am so excited to share the Gospel and grow closer to God. I am so excited for prayer. I am so excited to encourage others. I am so excited to love. I am so excited to grow. To grow and to find beauty. And to continue to weed out what needs to be weeded. And to let go. And to trust in God. I am excited for a guarenteed bright future. Use me God. I am Yours.

Colossians 3:1-4; "Since, then, you have been raised with Christ, set your hearts on things above, where Christ is, seated at the right hand of God. 2 Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things. 3 For you died, and your life is now hidden with Christ in God. 4 When Christ, who is your life, appears, then you also will appear with him in glory.

Colossians 3:15- 17; "Let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, since as members of one body you were called to peace. And be thankful. 16 Let the message of Christ dwell among you richly as you teach and admonish one another with all wisdom through psalms, hymns, and songs from the Spirit, singing to God with gratitude in your hearts. 17 And whatever you do, whether in word or deed, do it all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him."

Great verses to live by and think about. Any comments? Anything you'd like to share or add?

Sunday, July 29, 2012

I'm not hyper.

Okay, so I had a coffee and a coke and I am completely none hyper. And by none hyper, I mean I'm really hyper. So i thought it'd be a good time to listen to Taylor Swift and blog and stay away from people so I don't scare them with this bundle of energy... haha. Just kiddin. I've already been in public. Sweet Tomatoes to be exact. Anywho, I'm not hyper. ;)

My heart is Yours alone, God.

And it'll be okay, because God won't ever do that to you.

Actually, I'm just a Human. True to that.

Can you do me a favor, reader? Can you be happy? Just for today and at least for right now. You might be reading this and having a good day and thinking sure thing! No problem.Easy Peasy Lemon Squeezy. You might be having a bad day and reading this and thinking; "Man. Thats gonna be tough." But it really isn't too too hard. You have reasons to be happy. You have a shelter, you have air in your lungs, you have eyes to see and ears to hear. You could have a smile on your lips even if you really want one. Try it. Right now. Smile. Do you feel slightly better? Now spread that smile on to the next person you see and tell them to spread it to others around them. You have adventures to be had, life to be lived, a Savior who loves and saves. So be happy please? Even if it's just for now. Close your eyes, take a breath and think of something that makes you happy. Like unicorns or airplanes or stars. Think about places you want to go to. Exhale your stress, your worries and your problems. Because right now, that doesn't matter. Just be happy. Thanks. I like it when people are happy. :)

Ps. I'm not hyper anymore. :P

Saturday, July 28, 2012


So, I was gone for five days on a Missions Trip and I am exploding with words. So this is what my post will consist of. Caution: it may be long.

Some things that really stood out to me:

" It's not about what you want to do or be when you grow up, it's about what God wants you to be or do."

"So please don't fight
This coming light
Let this blood come cover us
His blood can cover us"

Colossians 4: 2 " Devote yourselves to prayer, being watchful and thankful. 3 And pray for us, too, that God may open a door for our message, so that we may proclaim the mystery of Christ, for which I am in chains. 4 Pray that I may proclaim it clearly, as I should. 5 Be wise in the way you act toward outsiders; make the most of every opportunity. 6 Let your conversation be always full of grace, seasoned with salt, so that you may know how to answer everyone."

These are words I have found very comforting this week. So powerful. The first one helped me with worrying about my future, and my plans for it. Because in reality, it's not mine. It's God's. And I'm glad that was pointed out and that I can be open to God's opportunities for me and pray about it more.  The second one, just kind of hit me. "His blood can cover us." His blood does and did cover us. We're free from sin because His blood covers us. How amazing. 3. One of the major things we did and experienced this week, was evengelism and doing things for God and being a light to the world and this passage just seems to bring peace and comfort when ever I get nervous about spreading the Gospel. I pray about it and pray for others doing it too. And I am reminded to be full of grace, make the most of every opportunity, so that I can know how to answer everyone. God is beautiful, and He is amazing.

Lastly, i realized i didn't miss a single thing about being home and reconnected to the internet and all this drama and junk the world draws you to. I felt refreshed to just focus on helping others, glorifying God and just being overwhelmed by His presence and what He wants from me. Even though I am back here, I think i want to become more unplugged to the world. And do more things. I want less of me, and more of Him. I want to influence and make a difference because it IS possible. By being unplugged, it doesn't mean i'll stop blogging or stop facebook completely. However, it does mean im going to stop doing it as much. I'm going to stop getting so in wrapped by needless, pointless drama. And pointless worries. I'm going to fill my mind more with things that matter. I'm going to do more and be more, and love more and hope more and pray more. The future is bright and beautiful, because God has made it that way. And everything, everything, turns to Him and His greatness. Try becoming unplugged, and shift your focus. And spread the light. Because this Love Story, needs to be told.



Monday, July 23, 2012


For 5 days.

Stay happy. Stay well. Remember. forget. Wish. Hope. Dream. Write. Sing. laugh. Be alone. Be together. Think. Think A Lot. Think good thoughts. Dance in the rain. Listen. Speak. Be.